It’s a very long time since I posted here. Lots of things have happened. I officially retired in October 2022, but am remaining active. My Parkinson’s is generally under control, and I’ll try and write more about that soon.
Thank you to all who have been in touch. I’ll try and respond. Thanks for your patience.
It’s March 21 and Spring has officially arrived. What a strange feeling. Nature is beginning to come alive again, leaves are appearing along with blossom on the pear tree.
But we are at the beginning of a huge health crisis. London is quiet as many of the shops are shut or empty and most people are indoors. I have been working from home and today is the first day I have ventured out during the past week. The news has become ever more serious; the numbers of people infected and dying increase each day.
Last week I wrote about pessimism and the difficulties of the
last few months. This week on some days I have been absolutely euphoric. My
walking has sometimes been excellent, as it used to be before I was diagnosed. That
feeling comes a few times a month, now more frequently than it used to. It
comes when I start walking and feel a lightness in my legs, pushing off with the
foot and striding out along the pavement.
I haven’t really written much in the blog recently. The last post was at the end of September, just before teaching began, when I left a video for my students to explain the symptoms of Parkinson’s. Over the last few months, I’ve had some ups and downs – more downs than ups, I think sometimes. I certainly haven’t managed to produce posts as frequently as I had before the summer, so in the near future I would like to talk more about specific events such as the holiday in Malawi, the return to work, voice therapy and physiotherapy, amongst others. These are all Good Things. However, today I want to focus on the downs of Parkinson’s.
I face a difficult conundrum: I’m often invited to speak about translation studies in universities across the globe, but a 12 hour flight is not the most suitable for someone who is suffering from stiffness that gets worse if I remain sitting down for more than half an hour. Add in some anxiety amongst large groups of people (as a rail station or airport for example), plus a conscience plagued by climate change, and you will be able to appreciate that a long-haul flight has its downsides.
A couple of weeks ago I was kindly invited to speak at
conferences in Hong Kong and Shanghai. It was a chance to catch up with old
friends, meet new people, share my experience and learn from the work they are
doing. People are sometimes surprised that I continue to make these trips. But
for me they are enriching and, with a little planning, not too onerous. I
normally ask for special assistance at the airport, which sometimes means I am
pushed in a wheelchair, but, as long as I am not depriving someone else, I’m
not too bothered because it means that I have a quick route through security
and passport control. It’s there that I need a little help, taking things out
of my bag and rearranging them after they’ve passed through the scanner. When I
get to the gate I’m allowed to board first.
The employees in the airport are sometimes surprised to see
me arrive carrying a rucksack and pulling a small suitcase and at the same time
asking for special assistance. That’s the nature of the condition: semi-visible
but always nagging. The assistance I receive is very important for me as it
reduces the stress of the journey and makes the whole experience much more enjoyable.
I was met at the airport in Hong Kong and Shanghai by a
student assigned to look after me. Many thanks to them! I find that on these
trips everyone is always so keen to help me and I’m very grateful for it even
if sometimes they are unsure exactly what I need. So I’d like to thank everyone
who made my stay so enjoyable and rewarding. Just a couple of regrets: my
delivery of talks has become more monotonous because of the condition and I
need to work on making it more dynamic; to tell the truth, I didn’t help myself
by forgetting my watch and being unaware that I had finished my first talk 10
minutes early. The other slight regret was food again. It was all so wonderful,
yet I’d convinced myself that I could no longer use chopsticks because of my
weakened right hand. Let me state clearly: ‘chopsticks beat knife and fork when
it comes to eating Chinese food!’ It was only back home a few days later that I
challenged my thinking and decided to take up the sticks again. The result can
be seen in the video…
Should I tell people I have Parkinson’s? What are the
benefits of doing so and what might hold me back from saying it?
Well, since I’m writing about it in a blog I can say that I
have told people and I do think there are benefits from being open about the
condition. When I was first diagnosed I told my immediate family and my
employer then my friends when I saw them or spoke to them. To my children, who
were quite young at the time and had seen how I had problems with my hand, we
said that I had a condition that would not get better and that it affected and
will affect my mobility. It was a few months later we told them it was Parkinson’s.